Just Last Time

She woke up with a start.Her fingers were clutching the bed sheet, her face was covered in thin film of perspiration. She remembered what woke her up. A plethora of images, some vivid ,some blurred ,some real, some distorted.In the end the same voice saying "It's for your own good ".
She tried relaxing.It must be around 4 in the morning she wondered. Had been able to sleep quite late last night. It was still quite dark but she could hear the rain outside. Rains...another flash of images. Once when they were caught while coming back from college classes. He used to drive a bike then. They had taken shelter in a bus stop.She could see his face, hear her laughter. This image quickly replaced by the next one. She was in his car and the rain drops were drumming down the car top. He was out buying something.....
She gave her head a shake. It was these images she had to get rid of. These memories she had to erase."Think about something else" she mentally admonished herself.
'Systematic desensitisation'.She remembered the word from her psychology classes.Can it be utilised in erasing memories, forgetting people.She didn't know.
Wanted her mind to spread before her like a book from which she could just erase the images of him , memories of times with him. Wanted selective amnesia, something through which she just forgets everything about him. "No ,No" ,one part of her mind shrieked.Don't want to erase every part. Want to keep some portions. Some good times. In fact even the bad times. The times when he made her cry, the times when he made her laugh, the times when he irritated her to the extent that she just wanted to wring his neck then and there. She smiled remembering those times.
But then how will she forget? She has to, right? This was supposedly for her own good. Stupid girl doesn't she know what's right for her. Apparently not. Her mind seemed to be split into two both fighting between themselves
She gave up resignedly. Her eyes were heavy again with sleep and then a final image of him. She sighed and decided to start forgetting him from tomorrow. Tonight ....just last time