Six Months.

Six Months today. Happy Diwali H. Hope you ve found peace , contentment, joy and above all love.
What have I found? I think more maturity, more cynicism, better control over emotions and yes that ever powerful word...experience.
I think that's a lot. Only other thing that I want is either selective amnesia or a delete button in my life so I just erase certain times.
Realizing that Forgetting is a long process...but hopeful that someday I will.. truly and irrevocably forget .

Half Yearly Report

"Removal of Excess baggage ". Well, this was my new year resolution for this year. So now that it is almost end of June - I've come with the report. How did I fare... quite well I think... Removed the baggage of excess relationships...those which have faded with the years..lost relevance but were still dangling on. Finally i moved away from them.Was Not easy as I think they also become habits..addictions..but then I was able to move away.. Still recuperating but with much stronger hope of self preservation. Need to improve a lot in my life..but happy to have made a beginning. Hope will be able to go only forward from here .

Cl(k)icked out of Life

The virtual world is a heaven for escapists. Infact it is God's special gift. Imagine the trauma and pain of trying to end a relationship by meeting a person , talking on phone , facing questioning reproachful eyes. Now you just click the button and delete the person from your life. One click and the person disappears from your chat lists, your social networking sites friend list etc. etc. See so simple. Let the person guess his/her position in your life. I mean dude with all this deleting you are supposed to get the hint. And even after this you are not getting the hint then duh ...who needs idiots in their life? So what if the person dumped is agonising about the reason for the demotion... So what if it is not considered decent by many? Well it serves the purpose... the person is out of your life for good and without any emotional atyachar. What else do you want in life? The time when caring about others feelings was important is past.. This is the competitive world where relationships are till they are of some use. After that who cares? It's a world where 'me' has to come before others. Only then you flourish and survive. Don't believe me ... then just ask all those losers who have placed someone before themselves...Ask them where they are? I am sure 9 out of 10 will tell you in the dumps.

Relieved.

I've resigned.And feeling very good. Relieved. Did I really hate my place of work so much. Ma commented that in 3 years that I've been working this is the only time I'm looking happy. Oh my god! Am I one of those who are made for a retired life ;) ha ha. well on a serious note making changes in life....good bad or ugly only time will tell. Only thing important is I am happy now :)

Dhanaulti

Dhanaulti. 60 kms from musorrie.Amazing views. Exciting way.Not so exciting company. A few memorable views from not a very memorable trip :)

Rooted

She was there , standing rooted to the spot. Wanted to move , but couldn't. Looked down, saw creepers growing up her feet. Wanted to give them a push... to move away from these entanglements... couldn't however hard she tried. She looked towards him ...he was going away...she tried calling his name... but no sound came out . She stretched her hand wanting to grab him... but her hands just clasped empty air.... she was looking like a frozen statue... with an outstretched arm.. hair blowing in the wind... silent tears streaming down her face. He will go.. she always knew that.. Knew that her time with him was numbered ...but then why was she feeling as if her heart has been squeezed tight draining out all blood..all life. She knew this was inevitable.. hell how many times had she told herself that she would be contented with whatever time he had with her. Living a lifetime in a moment. But now somehow that moment was not enough. she wanted more of him... more of his smiles.. more of his voice... more of his wit , his sarcasm. No she was not contented. she wanted more of him .. in everyway possible. She made one last attempt to call him back.. he turned ..looked at her .. gave another of his smiles... his eyes had what.. pity, irritation, ...god knows what. And then he turned back and walked away... walked away never ever to look back again. walked away like he always meant to. walked away to a new world .. walked away to anew future... leaving her rooted.. stuck in the past.

New Year Resolution

First of all a very Happy New Year to all....May this year brings contentment and success to everyone :)
This year i am not making multitudes of resolutions which just get broken along the way. This year I am making just one resolution " Removal of Excess baggage "
Simple.
From my body , my mind, my emotions and my relationships .I think this one thing will help me find a better me by this year end :)
Hope for the best